So its Day 2, I haven't read, I've smoked 2 cigarettes and didn't go to work. Yes I am still sick but I could have sucked it up and gone but nooooooo bed looked so much better to me at the time.
So I've rationalized that to myself by cleaning my Apartment and job searching (I hate my job FYI). I need something that challenges me mentally at least a little bit, right now I can do my entire job running on 2% brain power.
I think I have to break up with my girlfriend, not for anything in particular but just that I can't see myself with her long term. I do really care about her and she is a great person but she doesn't operate on the same level as I do. The only thing we talk about is how her day was anddddddddd that's it, she doesn't keep up with anything that's going on in the world and has no interest in learning about it. And unfortunately I have been finding myself looking at a certain type of girl more which means my tastes may changed or just that I don't find her attractive anymore...... I'm not sure why but I think I need to be more selfish this year until I'm happy.
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